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Tag: Depression

Autistic Burnout

CW Self-harm, trauma reference, sexual abuse reference Autistic burnout is where I find myself right now. It’s a lot like a nervous breakdown, and maybe a bit like clinical depression, but not quite like either. It’s got me right to the edge of a full-on psychotic break with regards to my PTSD and anxiety. I’m a… Read More ›


I can carry you

A close friend said something like that to me, last week I think. Actually, what they said was the iconic line from LoTR. ‘Cause we’re both geeks. “Come, Mr. Frodo!’ he cried. ‘I can’t carry it for you, but I can carry you.” (Samwise Gamgee to Frodo) ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King   I’d… Read More ›

Ingrained Elitism and Ableism in Publishing

I’m pretty much beyond the point of no return with regards to publishing with a big 5, or even being represented by an agent, (lol, unless my very outspokenness nets me one or the other, and yes, I’ve seen that happen, recently) so I think it’s safe enough for me to speak out about what… Read More ›

Breaking a Habit

They say it takes 21 days to truly break a habit. I’m not sure how true that is, but I do know that I just had to stop myself from sending out another query. I got yet another rejection, and I had to stop myself from sending a query to another agent at that house…. Read More ›


The first step to recovering from a slide into depression, or so my therapy has told me over time… Is to change behavior, if you can. I can’t do anything about the loss of our home, that’s just a wound I have to bear. I CAN do something about how badly querying is affecting me…. Read More ›

Mental Health Hiccup

Sorry, it’s another not so pretty blog post. You can pretty much tell my mood by how much effort I put into to putting images and what not into my blogs. I had a mental health hiccup this week. For so many reasons. Let me count the ways. (That’s a Shakes joke, laugh already, I’m… Read More ›


It never really goes away. Naming my issues helps me, and if you need to not read this post, that’s fine. I feel like I’m screaming into the void in any case. I don’t have it in me to make this a pretty, easily scannable post. I don’t have anything in me right now except… Read More ›